Lord Sovereign

God again has made himself so evident in my life. His sovereignty is almost overwhelming at times. How can the creator of the entire universe care so much about my life and my future? This time, the evidence of his faithfulness came in the form my own failure. I failed two calculus tests. I was/still am so mad at myself, but it was all part of God’s amazing plan. After that major failure, which occurred, of course, because I am a lazy slacker (!) God used different nudges and shoves to point me in a completely different direction. For about three months I’ve been  working at my old school as a TA (for all of you IMPACT TA’s out there, this one means Teaching Assistant) for kindergarten through sixth grade. Basically, I spend two and a half hours a day playing with kids! The best job ever, of course!Before I even started working there, though, I didn’t even like kids, now, I miss them over the weekends! That in itself is an amazing transformation, but it gets better! So, one day, my mum and I were sitting at the table talking, and all of a sudden my brain kicked in and realized exactly what we were talking about- me going into education and becoming a teacher! What? Where in the world did that come from? WHAT?! I started to freak out a little bit, I mean, going from biomedical sciences to elementary education is a huge switch! (it’s nice to be versatile, but it’s also super duper hard!) As I considered it more and more, I realized that, somehow, everything- I mean EVERYTHING- worked out so that I could make an easy transition into education. Then I had a feeling of absolute peace, “And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7)” It constantly amazes me how much God must love me to invest so muhc in my futre. I know that these events don’t jsut happen, but have been laid carefully since the beginning of time. And, that gives me a sense of incredible peace and comfort, that I am not alone, and God cares enough about the small things to make me sure that he cares about the big things.

On another note, Phillippians 4 has recently become one of my favorite passages of scripture. It is so comforting and the tone is so joyful. Having joy and peace in every circumstance, no matter how painful. Being able to know that God has a purpose in even the most painful of circumstances, and things don’t “just happen” but are ordained. God is sovereign and faithful. While this is so comforting and I am so grateful for it, it also humbles me so much. I am no where near good enough to be deserving and never could be, but God has shown me grace and my sins are covered with Jesus’ blood. What is more, God not only fogives me my sins, but he also faithfully uses them to make me grow. He has a purpose in every mistake that I make. He has a purpose in everycircumstance and that is why “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds” (James 1:2). “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28)!